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it’s very easy to hate. it is far more difficult to love. especially to love in spite of.
yesterday night at dinner, jonathan told me one of our friends dislikes a couple of his exes.
when pressed if she knew any of these girls, his answer was no.
the explanation is simple.
perhaps this hate was rooted in romantic jealousy
and while we all shook our heads and frowned,
have we all forgotten we might be accused of the same crime?
judgment. because hate is so easy, we slip into its embrace so willingly.
we don’t like someone…just because.
i’ve been there.
but distance and experience has caused me to reexamine some past judgment calls.
thanks to the profound stalker capabilities of facebook and personal blogs,
i've delved deep into the hearts of those who i have barred from my heart.
and what did i find?
myself.
these women were me. these women were human.
they have faults and hurts as much as i did.
and more than that, we have things in common.
that given another life, a different chance, we might have been the best of friends.
but never was i given that chance nor did i make that chance for myself.
i judged because i constantly allow my own rash, irrational, unfounded paranoia and personal jealousy to consume me.
for this, i am apologetic.
